I was a baby but I need to grow up

I was reading a little booklet the other days, and one chapter of that booklet really spoke to spirit and corrected my heart attitude.

It said " When you and I were born into this world, we were selfish and demanding, because as infants, crying was the only way we could communicate our discomfort and needs. We had to to let everybody know when we were hungry, uncomfortable, bored, and tired, and our caregivers came to our rescue. But as we grew up, our parents and siblings let us know that such childish behavior was unacceptable. We had to learn to feed ourselves, to walk, to speak, to dress ourselves, to keep ourselves out of trouble. Whenever we lapsed into childish attitudes and actions, we were warned and perhaps disciplined and told to grow up"

When I read this paragraph, I felt like someone slap me on my face. I might not yelling or screaming, I even never crying to show my discomfort emotional. One devotional that I read also said "Everyone wants to be noticed, to be cared for, to be loved". I always show whatever in my heart and my mind through some media such facebook or twitter. If something go well, I think it's good to share to everyone. I was wondering, when thing goes wrong, for example if I feel hurt, disappointed, sad, sick, etc, why should i share all these thing ? Yes, I want people take care of me, I want feel that I am loved, such a false comfort I get yet I don't know when I wrote the bad things happened in my life, how many people whom being friends on my facebook or twitter really care of myself ?

I really thinking, how often I ran to wrote status on my facebook when I felt discomfort instead of to God and just pour out everything that I felt.

I was a baby spiritually, and I think this time as I want grow closer with God so I need to learn that in every situation I need to come to Him first. I need to move forward from my false comfort. I remember, someone said "When you were alone and you were in pain, the greatest temptation is you feel lonely, rejection, or you even you felt no body love you and care about you, but what you have been thinking is not always true".

That little booklet also reminds me about :  Often God bring unlovable people into our lives to cultivating His love in our hearts. It's hard to love people who make life difficult for us, but these people can help us grow in grace and become stronger in faith and love. Love doesn't just feel it goes to work. God is our loving Father, and the world we live in is our Father's world, He is in control but He doesn't necessarily arrange things to keep us comfortable or to make life easier, sometimes He permits juts the opposite to occur, and we find ourselves nervous and upset and looking for somebody to blame instead of somebody to love. We start groaning instead of growing, and another opportunity is lost for glorifying Him

This time I really need to change my attitude and my action. I don't want to be a baby anymore, I want and I need to grow up spiritually, as I want to grow deeper and closer with God. I try my best to avoid share what inside my heart publicly, for I am sure that I am loved and I never be lonely. I need to keep remind myself that the greatest and the source comfort only come from Him, nothing compares.