Problem, is that real issue or you create your own problem ?

I was strugling with one BIG problem in my life for few years, same problem, of course I asked God to remove my problem, I declared God's word and I keep my faith God will remove my problem. But, the problem still there, nothing change. I still strugle, still feel the pain, hurt and disapoinment. Hmm is God didn't respond my prayer or what ?

Well, I guess few days ago I read book ( I didn't remember the title, since I have been reading so many books in last few weeks ), that book said that sometimes we create our own problem, the problem that seems big to us actually is not problem at all. So I was asking my self : is this real problem or just problem that I created ? And yes, that problem is created by my self. I have been strugling and asking God for nothing really matter. I feel so peaceful, when I realize that actually I don't have that problem.

One of my speaker said we need to use differerent lenses when we find any problems, if we use our lenses maybe we can't see clear or maybe we can't see at all, because we use wrong lenses. We need to ask God how to see problem in His eyes, and ask the Holy Spirit to renew our mind. Because only Holy Spirit that can lead us to the truth.

Don't fool yourself like I did, it's seriously wasting time. I didn't say that you wouldn't have a problem for the Bible said in this world you will have some trials and tribulations, etc and all those things will develop your characters. But some problems, sometimes is not a real problem.

Romans 12: 2 "Don't copy the behavior and customs of this world, BUT LET GOD TRANSFORM YOU INTO A NEW PERSON BY CHANGING THE WAY YOU THINK. Then you will learn to know God's will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect".

Lovely Chinese Lady...

Today, I went to some brothels, and I met one Chinese lady. When we spoke with her for the beginning, she was not look very friendly, probably because she can't speak English or she scared with us, until I said oh my background also Chinese, and I know "ni hao ma", all the sudden she offered us to came to her house.
She lives there with her son, and been in this country for about 14 years, and she said she only have one friend, and never really go out. I trust her, because she can't speak English. When we spoke to her, I saw tears on her eyes. In some reason I can feel her loneliness. Geeee 14 years and only have one friend, and all she met only some guys whom never respect her, and we never know how her son attitudes to her, I hope her son respect her.

I totally grateful, God gave me heart for women, they just so precious and teach me a lot of things about life. That Chinese lady has blessed me in some reason, that I couldn't explain. She really appreciate when I offered her prayer. She said "me not understand what you say, but me know you ask God to protect me".

If you think your life tough, look this lady. She just foreigner in this country, tried to survive with sell her body, after her husband divorced her and left her with their son. No friends and no skill, can't speak local language. Probably she have a lot of problem, but she can't share to anyone. I amazed with her. Strong woman.

Have you thanking God for friends and family ?

I wish I can speak Mandarin.. All I know just some basic words :(. If you read this blog and you want teach me basic mandarin conversation for free, or even if you want donate basic conversation in Mandarin, please kindly contact me. As we know a lot of girls whom get traffic or being work in sex industry come from China, so I guess it very helpful for me if I know their language.

Relationship

I'm not talking about love relationship with boy and girl. I just want to mention about our relationship with God and with other people. Both relationship are very important in our life.

One girl whom I met on Friday night, she's a working street. I didn't speak with her to be honest. All I know she adopted by Christian family, and got marry with good Christian man and have children. She was a sunday school teacher before. Maybe she had good life before the storms come. Her parents die, one of her childer also passed away, and her husband also. So she depressed and ran to alcohol, and the other children have take away by the government.

I don't want judge her. But her life story has opened my eyes about build a good foundation relationship with our Heavenly Father. He is the one whom never leave us or forsake us. He is the one whom will give us comfort. So when the storms of life come, we can fully assure come to Him.

We also need others people, people that can make us grow in God and so when the storms come, we also have someone that encourage us to seek God first instead of run to earthly stuffs that will destroy us.

The important things in any relationship is honesty and humility. We need to be honest what we truly feel, and accept with humility if God or our friend give critism.

A lot of people maybe scare to speak the truth or to be honest. I also even experience that stage, I scare if I tell them the truth they will hate me or they don't want to be my friend anymore, etc. But at the end, it's better to be honest, especially to God. Well, I just realize no matter what honesty still the key to build relationship, and it's make you free.

Rick Warren said in his book Purpose Driven Life : "You can develop humility in very practical ways : by admitting your weaknesses, by being patient with other's weaknesses, by being open to correction, and by pointing the spotlight on others"

I hope you and me can build good relationship with God and with others. :) .

I don't like my job, but....

Today I went to some places to met the working girls ( sex workers ) again. One girl that I met, she so young, pretty and nice. I talked with her, she shared that she actually doesn't like her job, and she doesn't know she still doing that. The main reason she comes to that place only because she feels she can share everthing with the other girls, she feels like she stays with her family.

This conversation actually made me thinking, how's her life, her family and her friend outside that place.
But I can feel her loneliness, and she needs someone that actually taking care of her and be honest each others.

I believe none of those girls like what their job. Money maybe the reason, but some of them also feel lonely. It's so easy to judge people, but we never know what they truly feel. I hope she can find way out from the trap of that job.

I love what I have been doing, talked with the girls, prayed for them, and sometimes I learn something from them too. I just wondering how many of us ever feel like that girl, doesn't like her job but doesn't know why she still do her job. Whatever our job right now, I guess the important thing is we work not only for money, but also to bring glory to God. We can't glorify Him if we do our work with half heart or grumpy, we might be didn't feel peace too in our workplace. So, it is important to seeking God for direction, ask Him for the right workplace. It doesn't mean we will not find any difficulties or problem but at least we do our work with grateful heart.

Unexpected person

I met one girl, few weeks ago. Honesty I don't really expect to be her friend. But we met accidently, because my friend introduce me with her. When we met, it was really awckward, we didn't speak for about an hour, and I hate that situation. Got trap with someone that I can't talk too and my friend seems not help us to break the ice. So I start to meditated Psalm 23:4 "Even when I walk to the darkest valley of death, I will not be afraid for You always beside me, Your rod and Your staff protect me and comfort me". I repeated that scripture over and over again. All the sudden, I tried to start the conversation. Big wow for me, for who don't know me, I never talk with stranger nor open conversation with someone whom I just meet.

So, now on I can open conversation with the stranger in the street, sometime I offer prayer for some women in the city. This help me a lot regarding my heart for women especially for those whom being slavery.

I felt God showed me several things :
1. I was walking with pride, that might be stop me to open conversation with new people.
2. Insecure, I might be scare the new people whom meet will reject me or etc..
3. Sometime the unexpected person that I meet is the person whom help me to reach my goal.

Yes, now that unexpected person is one of my good friend. And before I don't want to tell her how blessed I am to met her. But it's not fair if she didn't know our meeting few weeks ago was totally my turning point from my comfort  zone. I also thank's to my friend to introduce me with her and to didn't help break the ice.

Another person that I never expect to be my friend is actually someone that  I have mentioned on my blog " I love you but you break my heart ". She also the one that change the idea of life.

When God spoke to me : Trust ME !!!

God spoke to me numbers time : TRUST IN ME. I guess it started around February. He spoke to me when I was sleeping, and every time I open my Bible, the Scriptures always mention about trust in God, even when I went to church and read some devotional.
When I went to Planetshakers few weeks ago, the pastor said about when everything seems bright, we always feel energize and our faith must be strong. But when day turn to dark, how many of us still keep our faith and trust in HIM.
So, last thursday, I really have strong feeling God spoke to me about Trust In Him. And I said to Him : "hmm I trust in You God... But....". And He said : "If you trust in Me, you wouldn't say BUT, you still hold something in your heart, give all your burden to Me and trust Me".
I remember my friend gave me Scripture for Songs of Solomon 2:15 "Catch all the foxes, those little foxes, before they ruin the vineyard of love, for the grapevines are blossoming". It's talked about we need to give it all things to God, our plan, our dream, our pain, our future, our dissapointment, etc, for all those things hinder us to see God move in our life.
By the way, I don't know about you, because sometimes I struggle to fully trust in Him especially when something seems imposible and I have no strength to fight anymore. But God remain me a lot of things. He strengthen me through His Word which written in the Bible :
1. The earnest prayer of a righteous person has a great power and produces wonderful results. James 5:16
2. Keep on asking, and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking, and you will find. Keep on knocking and the door will be opened to you. Matthew 7:7
3. But with God everything is possible. Matthew 19:26
4. For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength Philippians 4:13
5. But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength. Isaiah 40:31
6. The Lord will comfort Israel again and have pity on her ruins. Her desert will blossom like eden, her barren wilderness like the garden of the Lord. Joy and gladness will be found there. Song of thanksgiving will fill the air. Isaiah 51:3
7. So be truly glad, there is wonderful joy ahead, even though you have to endure many trials for a little while. These trials will show that your faith is genuine. It is being tested as fire tests and purified gold-- through many trials, it will bring you much praise and glory and honor on the day when Jesus Christ is revealed to the whole world.
Until this time I still working on how to fully trust in Him and walk in His way in every situations. But at least I have weapons to against the enemies if they try to attack me again. Yes I have the words of God as my weapon.

I will only love my Lord

As long as I live,
I will only love my Lord.
With all my heart, strength and mind,
I will only love my Lord.
Regardless of what happens,
I will only love my Lord.
In all my actions and words,
I will only love my Lord.

In times of humality and learning,
I will only love my Lord
In times of joy and gladness,
I will only love the Lord.
Wheter I face hunger or if I'm full,
I will only love my Lord.
I am His in life or death,
I will only love my Lord.

The Lord has sacrificed His life for me.
My deep sin has been pardoned.
I have dedicated all my life to Him,
I will only love my Lord.

By Brother Yun.

Ministry for sex worker on Friday 8/4/11 part 2

I and my friend also handed coca cola and chocolate to the street workers. Almost all the girls under drugs or they drunk.

One of the worker we met, she was on drugs, she said everyday she need at least $500 for buy heroin. She was so sick and she hates heroin, but she doesn't know how to stop her addiction. We told her that we can help her. She promise to call us. This was so serious, she even ignore her customer, she rather talked with us.

The other street worker  we met, asked us to pray for her, she just want she can go home safe because she have children.

We met a lot of street workers actually, but I just gonna share some workers whom touch my heart.

The last one, very touch my heart, she was pretty lady, and she grew up in Christian family, she even used to be a Sunday school teacher. But after her parents died and her husband died, she feels lonely, so she ran to alcohol to comfort her. That precious lady, remind me about one Scripture from the book of Romans. Well, I this precious lady actually also encourage me to really have relationship with God. He is the only one source of comfort, so when the storms come, we can assure that God with us and He will comfort us. I pray for this precious lady, so she can come again to God.

I also pray for all the workers that we met last night, they will find Jesus in their heart, they will see the light of God and receive salvation. 

Ministry for sex workers on Friday 8/4/11 part 1

Last nite me and some friends went to 1 massage parlour and 3 brothels. We handed out easter gifts, donations by the churches,  we gave them body shower gel, coffee instant sachet, easter chocolate, milk chocolates drinking, and book of luke, etc.

The first place was massage parlour, the girl that I met said they just do massage, and she said sometimes the customers ask for more than massage, but they don't do that there. She was hoping the owner will provide security in that place. Because last week she only work by her self and she scared. But God protects her, nothing happened.

The second place was surprising me, because they covered they business with cars yard, but the main business is brothel. The workers whom work there are from asia. They can't talk with us because of the management rules, but the girls were happy for the gifts. I really hope all of them read the book of Luke or even call us for help.

The third place, hmm they have a lot of workers, we handed out 15 gifts. But we only met 1 girl, same reason the management don't allow us to come in. So please join with me to pray for them to read the book of Luke and receive salvation.

The last place, I can't really share information about this place because I just waiting my friends in the car.

Well, I hope the girls will read the book of Luke and easter messages. I pray as they read, God will touch they heart and they know that God love them.

Luke 15:3-7
Read and meditated on what Jesus said on verse 7: " There is more joy in heaven over one lost sinners who repents and returns to God than over ninety nine others who are righteous and haven't strayed away "

God bless...

Book Reviews - The Heavenly Man

This book is so encouraging. I think I don't have 1% from Brother Yun faith.

What I have been learning from this book and encouraged me in certain way :

1. When Brother Yun pray and fasting to have a Bible. He really desire to have and read God's word. Hmmm how many of us that have Bible but never read it ?
--Anyway Brother Yun got the bible, God seriously answered his prayer.

2. His faith in the midst of persecution in China.
-- This part encourage me to keep my faith and keep trust in God in every trial and tribulations.

3. His relationship with God and his obedience.

4. When he busy with his ministry, God sent him to the prison again.
-- This part, remind me about God more delight with our relationship with Him than what we do in this world. I just realize during my busy schedule, did I still keep good communication with Him ? 

"Draw close to God, and God will draw close to you"
James 4:8a

"Take delight in God and He will give you the desire of your heart"
Psalm 37:4

My idea about GPS

I have stayed in Adelaide for about 3 weeks and this week I start to volunteer at the church and Rahab.
So.. this the story...
I use to walk after work from the city to my cousin's house, it takes about 53 minutes if I follow the direction from my mobile GPS.
Yesterday, again I use my GPS, but I didn't follow the instruction.
I've thought I can reach the destination quicker than if I use GPS.
Sadly, I need to walk about couple hours to get home.

Good side : Burn calorie :P and well I got revelation actually.
In some reason I guess GPS is like the Spirit that live in us.
I don't know about you, but sometimes I asked God for the direction,
but I didn't follow His instruction, instead I was being stubborn and use my own way.
So yesterday, I realized.. when I didn't follow His instruction, it might be take a long time to me to reach my destination where's God want me to be or maybe I never reach the destination.

Psalm 119:105 said : God word is a lamp for my feet, a light on my path

We often ask for direction to God, but do we really follow His instruction ??